My Journey
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Connection is vital
Before I came into the rooms of AA, I didn’t like people too much. I think I really thought people were kind of useless unless they had something to offer me that I wanted. I never really listened. You could have a whole conversation with me and 15 min later, I wouldn’t remember half of what you said. I would remember just enough for you to think that I was listening. I never shared anything about myself that mattered. I was never honest with anyone about me. I wasn’t even honest with me about me . It was all too ugly. I showed you what I wanted you to see.…
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The Birth of Betty
People change their names or use different names for a variety of reasons. Two of my best friends go by their middle names, so does my boyfriend. My daughter goes by Bree (short for Breeana). My mom was Vicky for most of her life and hated that nickname so when she moved to NC she started over by introducing herself as Victoria, now nobody calls her Vicky. Actors change their names for the stage and people on a new spiritual path change their names to signify a rebirth. I sort of remember having to pick a name for when I made confirmation as a catholic. I don’t even remember that…
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Courage to change the things I can
From my very first meeting I have been saying the Serenity prayer for many different reasons. In the beginning it was my mantra whenever I was feeling angry, sad, lonely, crazy, thirsty, or just plain out of my mind. I said it alot! I think I said it about 100 times a day. It always made me feel better. At first the words were inconsequential. I said it, and I was instantly transported into the rooms of AA. I was safe. I became calm. It was just what I needed to get out of my head long enough to call someone or get to an actual meeting. As time when…
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Day One – I am not alone
I am 1,040 days sober today. This is what I journaled about day one. I can not explain what has happened to me but I know I am not the same person anymore. I am changed. Awake. Full. Serene. I was broken, shattered. My soul was almost empty. I say almost because when I showed up at AA, I still had the smallest amount of hope left. Hey, I showed up didn’t I? I had hope that they could help me. Hope that they could help me, but fear that they would. How did I end up here? I don’t live under a bridge. I don’t drink out of a…
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Hello world!
Sassy: Lively, Bold, and Full of Spirit; Moxie Sobriety: the condition of not having any measurable levels or effects from alcohol or drugs; Sobriety is also considered to be the natural state of a human being at birth Sassbriety: Living a bold, courageous life that is full of Adventure, Joy and lots of Love; to be drunk on life (instead of just drunk) This site is dedicated to those who loved me before I could love myself, to those who loved me after I could love myself and to those who let me love them before they could love themselves. I’m still trying to figure out how to use WordPress. It’s actually…