Too Easy

I hear alot ” If its too hard, that’s a good sign that you shouldn’t be doing it” or “if it’s too hard then it’s probably not God’s will”. This makes sense for the most part and I have actually avoided some situations following this advice. But I was never really prepared for when it’s easy.

Easy is weird, even uncomfortable at first. When things are too easy for too long I start to feel antsy. It’s almost not “normal”. I used to thrive in chaos. How will I thrive if all is peaceful? How can I show everyone how I can overcome and persevere if I am practicing acceptance and there is nothing to overcome. How can I be right if there is no fight. How can I be better than you without making you worse. Where’s the fun in trust, honesty, feeling comfortable around you, feeling comfortable around myself. It’s disconcerting and just downright freaking weird….at first

I have found that it’s actually alot of fun being me. Not having to wear a mask all the time. Not having to remember the lies I told you. Being able to share with each other truths that we never thought we would ever say out loud. There is an amazing freedom when you let go and choose to follow the easier path. Life is really not meant to be hard and it doesn’t have to be. We make it hard. Our egos get involved and take over and we need to fight, we need to win. We lock ourselves into the battle and once we start it’s almost impossible to surrender…almost.

It’s never too late to stop, turn around, let it go and stop fighting. When I start to think the peace and the comfort in my life today is boring, all I really have to do is remember my life before. Remind myself of the reality of my chaos. Or I can go to a meeting, call a friend. I have to remember that I am not alone anymore. I have to remember that I have the freedom today to choose peace.

Life is meant to be easy. When we can love and forgive each other it is. When it’s hard it’s because I am still fighting. And I say when because it still happens and when it does it never turns out well for me, even when “I win” or “I’m right”. Most of the time I find that being right and winning the battle is a pretty lonely place to be.

Accept people where they are. Don’t start to worry if things seem to be going your way too often. I have experienced when I live in love and service to others, things tend to go your way. And even when you think they are not going your way, wait a week or two and you will find that it actually was going your way, just not the way you wanted it to happen.

Yours in love and service

Betty